{"id":3456,"date":"2023-06-30T16:32:29","date_gmt":"2023-06-30T15:32:29","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/perpetualemotionmachine.com\/?page_id=3456"},"modified":"2026-06-28T18:48:16","modified_gmt":"2026-06-28T17:48:16","slug":"rumination-the-end-lose-it","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/musicbykey.com\/index.php\/rumination-the-end-lose-it\/","title":{"rendered":"Rumination \/ The End \/ Lose It"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
Key 80<\/div>\n\n\n\n

K<\/a>e<\/a>y<\/a><\/h4>\n\n\n\n

From Candor<\/a><\/h4>\n\n\n\n

2016<\/h4>\n\n\n\n
<\/div>\n\n\n\n
\"\"<\/figure>\n\n\n\n

Initial work for this began in 2016, for the Worry Box<\/strong> project as Perpetual Emotion Machine<\/a>. I was intending to write a downtempo piece, as shown by the electric piano chords at the beginning, but as is typical for me, I get into a groove, and so I ended up double-timing the arrangement, and it becomes a hard-hitting trance track with a notable change in tone as it progresses.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It remained in this condition for several years, unfinished, until 2022, after I had abandoned the idea of Worry Box.<\/strong> Pretty much all of 2022 was a clusterfuck for me, as my marriage had ended abruptly and my mental health was not in the best shape. So while I had always intended this to have lyrical content, this didn’t happen until after all of that occurred in my life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Originally, this demo was called Rumination<\/strong>, because I had wanted the lyrics to be about how sometimes a mind can fixate on things — especially things that are hard to deal with or for which answers cannot be found immediately — and how can shut you down mentally and emotionally. But in 2022, the lyrics became about my marriage ending.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It was never really a thing for me to write lyrics so plainly literal, drawing on personal events in my life — I usually prefer metaphors — but this is a prime example of a very literal account. The lyrics are specifically related to my marriage, the relationship, the personalities that were involved and implications of how and why things fell apart. It was easy to write, because it was all still fresh in my mind as I had spent months trying to work through it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The end result was a complete song that I truly think is one of my best, but is also something which lays my life bare for all to see. Additionally, the lyrics are so apparent to those who know me, that when it came time to perform a live show for which I had chosen to perform this song, I opted to rewrite the lyrics, because persons involved in the situation were to be in attendance. I was not looking to call out or expose people involved in the situation. So I wrote something more general and vague. Thus, there is an expurgated version of the lyrics as well.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Lock 8000<\/div>\n\n\n\n
Rumination (Original Demo)<\/h5>\n\n\n\n

Key<\/h3>\n\n\n\n

This original arrangement from 2016 is vocal-less and has only the sequenced parts created.<\/p>\n\n\n